how uninspiring...

Well, I attended a boring course today. Ugh..., I feel like I'm going to meditate rather than listening to any of the instructions or speech or whatever it is... I'm thinking of creating a piece right now (FYI: If I ever mention the word 'piece', it means a poem). Not a problem anyway. At least I can deliver & express my feelings today into a positive energy. I'm done here. My neck had stiffened. One of the reason I hate sitting in front of a computer for too long in an incomprehensive, discomfort space. Not to mention that my laptop is now on my lap (it explains why it is called laptop). I wish I could just lay on the bed (or beach but not during the sunny sunshine shines you to burn) right now enjoying the exquisite experience in some 5 stars chalet or in a country house. Wait... I said I'd done above, right? I think I should... Until then, you're gonna miss me... You Know You Love Me, XOXO... hehehe (I borrow her line)... See you again

feeling lonely...alone

Honestly, I'm not used to being lonely. Most of the time, there are a lot of people around me but today, I was left alone. Don't think it's a bad thing as in 'my friends leave me because I'm a jerk' thing. I had to attend a course tomorrow, just a day. Pretty obvious I'm a person who can't live alone; without friends. Loneliness like this always bring back ancient memories of mine. Songs I'd heard in my younger days; beautiful poems & inspirational quotes I used to stick at the back of my class (everyone loves it); the years long time ago when I was the art freak; & of course my times with family. That is why I called my mum just now, just to ask the news; how's dad & everyone at home (my cat too - probably overweight now). I think sometimes it's good to be lonely & to feel lonely. It makes me think about the past, the present & the future (I'm not sure if people agree with this but this is what I'd experienced). One of the good thing about being or feeling lonely; it brings family values as the example above; feeling lonely today had made me call my mum. It's been a month I didn't hear anything from my family. It had brought me to tears too... How emotional. Now, I'm doing this blog, expressing what I feel had made me feel a little better. Thank You Allah for making my day a great adventure. Forgive me for all mistakes I've done. Only You The Merciful One